some setbacks

So how's the sugar detox going, Saira? I know I haven't checked in since day 1, so I must say that five days all went as I wanted. Then I took a trip out of town and the tumble weeds really started to roll down the road. I've allowed myself a bite of this or that in the two days since that eventful lunch, but I have resolved to get some gym days in to motivate me further. I felt compelled to write today, of all days, because, frankly, I am in an atrocious mood. The kind of mood where I sullenly walk in the front door and leave everything to the imagination, as I won't say anything about my day. The kind of mood that provokes a few hearty punches into the unassuming steering wheel. Where everywhere I go tonight I am alone in my thoughts, as this small town leaves people to their houses and their moderately contented lives on the weekdays or to their quiet, suppressed lives of drudgery. Yet for some reason no one seems to mind. Their robot mode is in play, and their passions and pursuits are not a part of their everyday reality. All has been dialed down to a steady soft him: day in, day out.

I'm tired of pushing my will on apathetic, bitter, inwardly discounted people. When I set out to help someone with good intent and kindness I am rewarded with ugly words and no appreciation. I wonder if this is how my parents felt when I was a teenager, or even now when my moods don't welcome
their pleasant dispositions. I m ready to leave this place that felt like a fenced in, over watched existence. I would love to be anonymous now and only influence those who will readily receive my words and my effort, or at least let what I say stew in
their minds for later perusal and usage.

Tonight I am not pleased.

May tomorrow be significantly improved,
Saira

Day 1: 21 Day Sugar Detox

Holy moly. For the next 21 days I've waved an imaginary hand to sugar. In addition to not eating sugar, I've decided to cut out starchy things too, which I guess I would pretty much do with no sugar. It's halfway through the day, and I'm feeling great. I did have a blunder at breakfast when I went to Starbucks to meet a client, and I ordered an egg and chicken sausage wrap. I My Fitness Pal-ed the food item and found that it had 7 grams of sugar. So minus that slip up I'm fueled by a passion iced tea (unsweet, of course) and tons of water. I'm about to eat one scrambled egg and some fruit. Oh yeah, fruit sugars are allowed; it's just the ick that's in processed foods that is cut out, and I suppose no sugar in my tea either, but I never did that anyway.

For some reason I expected my body to fall apart or at least be rebellious if I took sugar away. Instead, I think it's thanking me. I would describe my current mood as bouncy, and I've brushed away negativity all morning. But who knows, maybe today was just supposed to be a happy day for me.

If you're curious about how to try this 3 week lifestyle/health change check out this book. I say book because they are usually more comprehensive than websites. AND you cannot replace the lovely new page smell from books with a computer screen thingy.

I am considering posting my measurements at the end of every week so I can track body changes. I don't know what to expect, so here's hoping for some magic!

Try this. Your mood will thank you (and the people you normally go cranky monster on will thank you too),
Saira